You called yesterday and it wasn't until today that I saw the missed call!
Why is it that we have this cyclic relationship?
Should I call you?
Will we finally get together this time?
Maybe I should tell your blogger friend that I want to talk to you.
Maybe I shouldn't.
Too late, he reads my blog, but he doesn't know I'm talking about him or you.
Where will this all end?
Last week I promised myself the past would be the past and I wouldn't look back on it, and suddenly out of nowhere you call...
Does this mean anything?
Are the "Powers That Be" against me?
I don't want to lose my time anymore.
I need to settle down.
I need to stop running away.
I need to face myself.
I need to face life.
I need to embrace it.
I need to let go of all the issues.
I need to let go of all the fear.
Will it be with you?
Have things changed?
Today someone told me he wanted to introduce me to a friend of his.
I need someone new in my life.
I need to let go of all the ghosts.
I need to stop living on the past.
I want the future.
I need the future.
Why do you call then?
Am I destined to be tied to the past?
I don't want to!
I don't want complications, I don't want issues, I don't want secrets, I don't want lies, I want to keep my promises and promises to be kept from the other end as well.
I need someone who wants the same things as I.
I'm almost sure we're not on the same page.
You need to live.
I have lived.
I need security.
I need to know that someone will be there.
I need so many things I know you don't want to give me, or maybe you can't.
I can't go thru this one more time.
I need security.
I need peace of body and mind.
Maybe, I won't call back...
Not maybe, I just won't call back...